hi, im from India and my boyfriend is joining the army this month. he is so delighted and i havent ever been more proud of him, we have been together since high school. im 22 now. we are best friends. and im very used to him. there isnt a single day when we dont talk. and now he isnt allowed a cell phone/laptop. so we have to write snail mails.
i have no other friends and i come from a broken family so home is shit. i seriously have no idea what to do, how to live. i have no desire to go on. im so scared. i dont know how to live with the fact that he wont be just a phone call away anymore. ever. my heart is breaking everyday as the day comes near, i feel scared and lonely. i have no where else to go. i dropped out of college and i have a below average paying job at the moment.
i dont even know when we will be in the same city again. im scared of being alone. i dont want to see a single day without him near. i dont know how to wake up and get out of bed by knowing that i cant talk to him.
just looking for some support here. please help me live on.